Easter Plate Hunting

2017-04-22 16:56:10 gwynn-rogers

Ever have those nights when you can’t sleep?  Your body aches, your brain won’t stop whirling, you toss and turn, and finally you decide to get up to eat or drink something so you can go back to sleep.

Well, I had one of those nights so I climbed out of bed about 1:00 in the morning stumbling into the kitchen to go drink some almond milk and take a Tylenol.  Since the dishes in the dishwasher were clean I decided to put them away too.  We have a couple of sets of old plates, and one set is missing a plate as it broke years ago, so we only have three plates of that set.  But, when I went to put the plates away my set of three was down to two, a plate was missing.  Now WHERE could it be?

My husband sometimes misplaces things, or maybe he had left his sandwich on it and put it in the refrigerator.  Nope, I checked the refrigerator it wasn’t there.  I checked the other cabinets and drawers.  I could NOT find that missing plate.  Hmmm, maybe my husband broke it accidentally and forgot to tell me.  Ok, so I’ll ask hubby in the morning to see what happened to the plate.

The next morning, as my husband quietly sat and drank his coffee, I asked him what happened to the missing plate.  He said that he was going to put his sandwich on the plate, but decided the plate was too big.  He indicated that he put the plate away.  “Ok, if you put the plate away, why can’t I find it?”  I checked under the sofa, as sometimes when he finishes his meals he puts the plate on the floor. It could slide under a piece of furniture. Maybe it accidentally ended up under a chair or something… NOPE!

By now, I’m about ready to pull my hair out.  At this point, Hubby gets up to heat his oatmeal in the microwave.  He opens the microwave and THERE is the missing plate with his lunch meat, and melted cheese on it.  This means that when he made his lunch the day before, he had toasted his bread and added the extras:  mayonnaise, lettuce, and pickles.  But this is when he decided to use a smaller plate.  He was also engrossed watching the news.  Hubby threw his sandwich together, cut up an apple, and grabbed a couple of chips and sat down to eat his lunch.  He had TOTALLY forgotten to add the important lunch meats and melted cheese to his sandwich.  It NEVER occurred to him that he had forgotten the main part of his sandwich while eating it.  See what happens when you grow old!

Oh well, at least we found the missing plate!


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January 2017 - IWSG... The Joy of Caregiving

2017-01-04 16:34:31 gwynn-rogers

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New Year’s Eve’s early morning started off with a BANG, CRASH, and THUD!  I jumped out of bed, ran around the corner of our short hall directly into the living room of our tiny apartment. There sprawled on the floor was my husband.  He had passed out again. We must have looked like an episode of Oliver and Hardy, where Oliver misses a step on the ladder crashing to the ground while Hardy… me runs around in frantic circles.  As my husband lurched toward the floor he hit our oak corner table shoving it into the wall of our tiny apartment.  Now there is a slight indentation in the wall. You can say we have made our impact on the apartment. My mornings frequently start out this way as of Christmas Eve 2015, one year ago.

My friends and I believed that after raising children that our senior years would become easier… the Golden Years. Then Christmas Eve night 2015 while my husband and I were lounging in bed watching TV my husband turns to me uttering, “Call 911!  I can’t take the pain any longer.”

I’m thinking, ‘But this is Christmas Eve. We have plans to enjoy Christmas day with our son.’ So, turning to John I mutter, “How about if I drive you to the hospital?” thinking that we would get to the hospital, the doctor would give John some medicine to settle his tummy, and then we could come home.

My husband evidently didn’t see the confusion in my eyes.  I was scared and concerned for my husband, but I wanted to enjoy Christmas with my family.  John emphatically muttered, “No!  Call 911.  My acid reflux is killing me.”

As it turned out, the ‘acid reflux’ was killing him, but it wasn’t acid reflux.  John had a serious hiatal hernia that was extraordinarily large, twisted around his stomach, pushing into his lung, and turning gangrenous.  To add to the fun, my husband has such extraordinarily low blood pressure that he would stand up and pass out.  I was hoping the doctor and hospital aids would wrap him in bubble wrap.

Now after several surgeries, and a barrage of tests, the doctors still don’t know why John passes out.  Consequently, at night when he gets up and attempts to use the bathroom he may walk a couple of feet along the edge of the bed, start to wobble and bounce like a small child on the bed.  Sometimes he misses the bed and hits the floor.  Sometimes he staggers to the end of the bed and bounces on my legs.  Night after night, and during the early mornings we go through the same routine.

Over the year, John has crashed through a couple of bathroom walls, knocked wooden closet doors off their tract, and banged up his head, back, leg, and shoulder.

My morning consists of getting up before John to get his water, pills, coffee, and oatmeal ready.  I watch as he marches laps up and down our short hall as he works to get the blood circulating to his brain.  Now, after seven months of this morning routine, he is finally able to walk out to the mailbox to get our mail, walk down our few steps to dump our garbage and recycling.

We don’t go out for meals, to visit our grandkids, or to run errands. “WE” is now “Me.”

I’m still wondering WHEN do the Golden Years start?   zany1

This month’s IWSG question is “What writing rule do you wish you had never heard.”  There are two rules that drive me crazy and I’ll bet you can guess from reading my story which two rules they are… “Show don’t tell,” and Write what you know. When I “tell” my stories I see them vividly in my mind… you mean you CAN’T read my mind?

Also, writing what I know… hmmm, WHAT do I know?  I have volunteered forever with organizations that help children because of my dysfunctional family life while growing up.  I keep thinking that if I tell my story people will see what went wrong in my family… so they will do things better and differently.  Also, I admired Erma Bombeck’s style of writing with heart and humor… I hope to “grow up” to be like her… wish me luck.

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December's IWSG - Do I have Writing Goals?

2016-12-07 03:04:53 gwynn-rogers

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Many Thanks to Alex Cavanaugh for starting the Insecure Writer’s Support Group and to my friend, Patricia Garcia, for inviting me to join this supportive group.  I also thank this month’s IWSG co-hosts: Jennifer Hawes, Jen Chandler, Nick Wilford, Juneta Key, JH Moncrieff, Diane Burton, and MJ Fifield.

In regards to December’s IWSG question: In terms of your writing career, where do you see yourself five years from now, and what’s your plan to get there?

Sadly, my writing “career,” if that is what you want to call it is haphazard at best.  Initially, I wanted to write a book about my brother’s sad life, but I realized I had too few facts to create a book.  Then after taking writing classes for various aspects of writing I realized that I am happier writing short stories.  I especially loved Erma Bombeck’s style and wanted to follow in her footsteps.  Sad, but true, in attempting to publish my stories, I realized that the stories that magazines now publish are extremely different than in the “old days,” the stories I used to read.  Despite obstacles, I have managed to publish a few short stories though.

I have a thought about producing a book on Caregiving since I have been caregiving for my husband for a year.  Caregiving is NOT what I thought it would be like!  I suspect other people were surprised about how exhausting and maddening caregiving can be… who would know?

Recently, I received a book, DON’T WRITE YOUR BOOK WITHOUT ME, by Viga Boland.  The opening pages have hooked me right in to thinking about writing about my brother’s and my life again.  Viga’s book is a “page turner” for me as her comments are not the standard… she wants me to “Free fall” —starting with random thoughts rather than using a specific outline.  I like her thinking.

So my goal is to inspire my writing again… to actually accomplish more rather than shoving my writing in the garbage can.

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Welcome to a Caregiver's World

2016-11-22 02:46:06 gwynn-rogers


“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the things which you think you cannot do.”                    — Eleanor Roosevelt

“If you can’t change your fate, change your attitude.”     ― Amy Tan








Walking into the Best Western’s conference room, as I looked around, I noticed approximately ten tables decorated in fall colors that were set for eight to ten male and female caregivers expectantly waiting for answers to their problems.  Questions and comments I heard at the Family Support Caregiving Conference included statements like: One tired and tense, young woman spoke with tears in her eyes, “How do I care for my parents, go to work, and care for my kids too?”

Another woman said, “I was so angry that my husband had Alzheimer’s that I finally realized it was more important to take care of me, and then I stopped being angry.”


The leader of the support group mentioned, “Dealing with my parents’ finances, while they were sick, simply was not a matter of paying bills, there was way more to it as my sisters and I could not agree on what needed to be done for our parents’ financial security. I was heart-broken.”

“One wife said, “When I called ER and they showed up, I told them my husband passed out and nearly killed himself hitting his head on the tile floor in the bathroom.”  The Emergency Medic turned to her and replied, “Your husband is drunk.”  Her shocked response was “What do you mean he is drunk?”

Women in my group predominantly are caring for husbands and parents with Alzheimer’s, but there were a few exceptions as the woman who is dealing with caring for an alcoholic husband and attempting to get him straightened out.  Then my husband has extraordinarily low blood pressure, so he stands up and passes out, adding to his other health issues.

What shocked me was the amount of anger that these loving women dealt with in caring for their family members.  I thought I would be the only angry person in the group, and I felt there was something wrong with me for feeling so bad.  Then I learned that you “need to give yourself oxygen before you can care for a loved one,” as it seemed to be the quote of the day for our group.


The Family Caregiver Support Conference included subjects like: Don’t Let Your Back Pain Slow You Down, Meditation and Self-Care Exercises, Assistive Technology, Safe Physical Transfer Assistance and Use of Equipment, and finally small break-out group discussions.

The Meditation exercise relaxed several of us so much that I noticed heads drooping as it nearly put us to sleep. Yes, we were stressed out.  Then the conference leader had us doing stretches, and showed us some exercises to help keep us strong. The exercise would relax us too. After teaching us to relax, a list was handed out of agencies from around the county that we could turn to for emotional support.

The amazing part of this conference showed us equipment that helped severely disabled people function more normally on their own.  Heck, I was shocked to see what looked like eye glasses designed to help people manipulate their computers through head and eye movements alone.

For those people with difficulty operating various machines, there are special handles that look like gardening tools designed so that you can attach it to the disabled person and then to the piece of equipment.  Thus these handles make life easier for handicapped people so they can function more on their own.  So not only caregivers gained support but we learned where to find equipment that would help incapacitated family members too.


For me, the best part of the conference was learning of the variety of support agencies that I can turn to if I need help.  As well, I enjoyed meeting the other caregivers out there who needed support, as I do.  We shared stories and tears.  None of us expected to end up in this position but now all we can do is the best we can do, and know that we aren’t alone.  Turning to others and helping one another out is important.  I think when we all left the conference we felt that the load on our shoulders had lightened.

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IWSG - November - Did You Hear That?

2016-11-02 01:03:23 gwynn-rogers

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Many Thanks to Alex Cavanaugh for starting the Insecure Writer’s Support Group and to my friend, Patricia Garcia, for inviting me to join this supportive group.  Sadly, due to life, I missed posting for October so I will post two posts this month.

November’s question for the writers is “What is your favorite aspect of being a writer?”  Actually, to be honest, I had never thought in terms of being a writer.  What I like is creativity, and writing gives me the opportunity to express my feelings around family events that in some cases deserve to be told.  My belief is that we learn from others’ life experiences… I hope people are listening.  Thanks for stopping by.








So many people take our senses of hearing, seeing, taste, and touch for granted.  Boy did I ever learn a good lesson when I picked up new hearing aids as I have lost 50% or more of my hearing in both ears.

Suddenly, driving, as the rain slams against my car, it assaults me as it sounds like machine gun fire interspersed with firework like pops as the cars passing me splash the puddles at my car.  My keys in the ignition clanked as they seemingly slammed against my CRV’s dashboard like a sledgehammer. The car seat sounds like the leather is cracking with my every move.

Normally, I turn the volume of my radio up quite high, but it nearly blasts me from the car.  My God, I can hear!  Now my car won’t bounce down the street with the beat of the music.

On my walks along the waterfront, I hear the waves lap against the shore as the seagulls scream their lungs out while laughing at me as they fly overhead.  I even hear the conversations of people walking in the park.  Children laugh and babies cry.  I can hear it all.  I jump as a jogger runs by me.  In the past, I could not hear someone coming up from behind me.

The other day down at the public restroom down at the Marina Park there was a mother with her three year old daughter.  We managed to leave the building at approximately the same time with me a few steps ahead of them.  Earlier that day the rain had drenched the earth and there were humungous mud puddles along the walk way leading from the restroom.  As we left, the mother mentioned that she needed some water.  The little girl pointed to the enormous mud puddle they passed and said, “Mom, there is your water back there.”  I absolutely chuckled, as without hearing I could not hear these fun conversations.

As I type, I hear the clatter of the keys on my computer’s keyboard.  Heck, I thought they were silent all this time.  The best sound in the world is my children’s and grandchildren’s voices without my saying “WHAT?” all the time.  However, I feel sorry for them as my new hearing aids screech every time I put my cellular phone near my ear.



In the kitchen, I hear the crinkle of the aluminum foil as I unroll it to wrap around my salmon.  The foil screams as I tear it off.  I used to complain that the timer on the oven was so soft it whispered at me.  NOW, I realize it sounded like a fog horn all this time.  I hear the clank of the silverware as I put it away in the drawer or pull out knives and forks when I set the table for dinner.

Yes, my family has a history of bad hearing, as I had lost over 50% of my hearing in both ears by the time I was 40.  However, ego and lack of money kept me from purchasing hearing aids.  I finally made the decision to wear hearing aids, several years ago, so now my old hearing aids were no longer receiving sounds, or my ears were filled with wax… YUP… BOTH.  After the audiologist drilled for gold in my ears and replaced my antique aides with new aides, the shock of hearing nearly gave me a headache!


Now, I hear the creak of the floor boards and the thuds of the people walking around in the apartment above us.  Oh yes, now I don’t have to leave my cellular phone’s volume on high.  I can HEAR again!  It’s a GREAT new world out there!

And now, don’t talk behind my back, as I CAN HEAR YOU!











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  1. I am enjoying your musings”very much Gwynn! I am so impressed at your writing and rich life. You believe in yourself. Yes! You are perfect person to find mentors for young people. High quality guidance and encouragement can make or break a child IMHO. what a worthy pursuit. Now. Where oh where is that sophomore social studies paper on the decline of America!! What a treasure it must be. Was that Mr. Stannard? Were you In Honors English, and did you know Shelley Bigelow?

    GREAT idea to post your blog link on Facebook for those of us who need all the help we can get

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Somehow your reply snuck in on my blog and it didn’t tell me. Sorry for the late response. As for finding mentors, because of the economy most of the mentoring programs have gone POOF… sadly. So I’m struggling to find some new mischief to get into! As to that sophomore social studies paper, I had good old Mr. Douthwright! Remember him? Now, I nearly fell over laughing… ME in Honors English????? NOOOOOOO, I don’t think so!! I’m a slow bloomer!!! 😉

      Thank you for your kind comments about my writing. It helps being invisible. Plus, I’m in a couple of writing groups and I learn from others.

  2. Solveig says:

    What a great post! I am glad that the tree did not cause any major problems and led to a good friendship. There is something good in everything!

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Hi Solveig, It is lovely to see you here. That tree was scary and I’m so glad no one was hurt. It is strange introducing one’s self to your neighbors and asking to remove your tree from their roof. The best part is that due to the structural damage taking place in their roof, before the tree hit, the insurance company got to pay for it. I have been friends with them for about 38 years now.

  3. Nathan Kirby says:

    Excellent essay, Gwynn! I can say from personal experience: you are a natural caregiver. One of the best! You took me right in and what DIDN’T you do to help me out? You were my foster mom. I think you do that with everyone! And you NEVER ask for anything in return, except that people do well.

    You are one of the strongest, most compassionate, empathetic, nurturing people I’ve EVER known! It’s not in your blood: it IS your blood! I’m really surprised you weren’t a doctor or nurse or someone who ran/runs a shelter for abused or wayward people and-or animals. Sometimes such a life has its little rewards. Here I am 22 years later singing your praises to the heavens and thanking you for all you did for me from the bottom of my heart! Hell, I’m upset I can’t get up there to help you move!!

    You’re doing great, Gwynn! No one cares more or better than you! Please keep blazing that ever-growing trail of aided, helped, saved, and eternally grateful people!

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Nathan, you are such a wonderful young man. I enjoyed having you around the house. I think you helped us all at the same time. The funny part is that my Numerology all dictates that I AM a caregiver. I guess I was born that way. I LOVE helping people who I care about… you were fun to have around. I truly missed you when you signed up for the Air Force.

      Now you are grown and a caregiver for your father. You and I know how hard this job is and I take my hat off to you. You are doing a ‘stand-up’ job of keeping your father well. Remember to take care of yourself too, as you have one HECK of a job to handle. I’m sending you HUGS!

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About Gwynn

smaller picMy friends pushed me right out of my safe hiding spot, and assured me that my writing and stories deserved to be heard. These stories include fun times and sad times, as I grew up.  They paint a picture of me – define me.

After 20 years of sales and marketing experience in the fields of real estate, high tech, and corporate travel, I have moved on to the career of “Grandma.” When not teaching my granddaughters an extensive vocabulary of “alley-oop-boop, ups-a-daisy, cowabunga or bummer,” I can be found hunting for mentors for the Kitsap Youth Mentoring Consortium, or chasing my fantasies on my treadmill. I currently freelance for magazines.

Also, I wish to thank my friend, William Kahlo Jones, photographer, for the use of his picture for my cover page.  To see more of Bill’s photos go to:


Bill Jones, Photographer

Bill Jones, Photographer


Copyright Gwynn Rogers 2012.  All rights reserved.


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  1. Penni Marvel says:

    These were WONDERFUL and heartwarming to read. You are a blogger! And a writer. GOOD FOR YOU!

    Penni : )

  2. Carol says:

    Immensely grateful for your insight and support—you are an enormous impetus to me–encouragement to face my limitations, real or imagined.

  3. Mary Jo Doig says:

    After hitting and missing you on FB, I finally decided to Follow your blog, Gwynn. Thanks for having me here. I hope your husband is on the other side of his health challenge and look forward to reading your blogs!

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Hi Mary Jo, I have been without a computer for over a week. Plus, as you may have noticed I have been remiss in posting as I have a great deal on my plate at the moment. I will attempt to keep up with the 2016 A to Z Blogger’s Challenge. My theme will be caregiving. However, we may be moving in April too so heaven’s knows whether I will finish the Challenge this year. I do have my fingers crossed.

      I DO enjoy reading your notes, but I haven’t seen too many lately. Thanks for connecting with me! I look forward to further chats with you.

  4. Linda Yezak says:

    Okay, kiddo—I don’t know how to reach you any other way, so I’m leaving a message here: I prayed for you the day of your surgery and have held you in my prayers since. Let me know how you’re doing, okay? You have my email address in your form.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Oh Hi Linda! Sorry for taking so long to check my blog. I am surprised that you don’t have my email on your blog. I’ll see if I can respond to you via email. Thanks for your prayers… I’m doing SUPER!!

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Oh goodness, Linda, Thank You for your prayers. I am doing amazingly well! Sorry that I didn’t respond sooner. I’ll email you. Gwynn

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