Good morning, all,
It’s the first Wednesday in the month and IWSG Time has come around again.
I thank Alex Cavanaugh for creating the group and my friend, Patricia Garcia, for inviting me to join.
Currently, I’ve been overwhelmed as I have just completed April’s A to Z Blogger’s Challenge. This year is the first time that I disclosed a theme, Caregiving, as I am in the midst of caring for my sick husband. To add to the fun, I’m also literally in the process of moving. I’m a split personality as I’m here, my books are there, and I have no idea of where I’m going to put the rest of my belongings. There is some light at the end of the tunnel as we will complete our move May 14th. Wish me luck at finding anything!
In the process, our cable company turned off our cable as we could not get it through their heads that we needed cable at both residents. Fortunately, I was without the use of my computer after the April Challenge.
Writing for the Challenge helped me process my thinking. I started out by whining or expressing my emotions as I was going nuts. I guess I needed the outlet. Eventually, I realized what I was doing, and worked at providing more information about the caregiving process, as it is not as simplistic as some people might imagine. Being open and real is highly important to me, in my writing. With a husband and wife, part of the caregiving process is dealing with our emotions… what are they and why are they suddenly appearing. There is also the process… running up and down stairs for meds and foods. I also had to deal with my husband’s passing out and taking him to Urgent Care because of the damage he did to his body in his falls.
Now, as my husband becomes healthier, the dynamics change somewhat. I have relief from some of my work as my husband can help care for himself now. It has been four long months and I’m very tired, but relief is in sight.
I still need to analyze my caregiving process more thoroughly so that I can clearly show people what I experienced. But the Challenge was a great start for me as it made me think.
Amazingly, I survived the Challenge. My writing is beginning to take form. My husband survived my caregiving, and like the Little Engine that Could, I’m still chugging up that hill moving boxes to our new home.
This has been quite a process for me to be a caregiver, write, and move all at the same time. I so dearly appreciate all the support I received. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!
Today is the last day of the 2016 A to Z Blogger’s Challenge and I can’t believe I survived! This month, besides the Challenge, I have been caring for my sick husband, preparing to move, changing addresses, and moving bit by bit. My life, my books, and my world are upside down.
There is nearly Zip, Zero, and Zilch for me here in the house. I’m stressed so I must look like a Zombie with non-focused, bug-eyes, yet I still attempt at some form of being Zany. But, I’m dead to the world… so I give up!
I’m probably so tired that my brain has Zipped off for a vacation, but in the process of driving home from running errands today, I looked in my rear-view mirror and what did I see, but a Zombie in the car behind me. It appeared to be a Changling as I could not determine if the figure was a man or a woman or even what color skin the zombie had. The size of the head changed, the face changed, the style of the hair cut changed every time the figure moved. The head ballooned into a gigantic black figure with a box-cut hair style and black glasses one minute. I turned my head to look again and the head shrunk to a pea-size. I never was able to determine what the figure actually looked like. I SWEAR I’m not on any meds or Pot!
Evidently, I have lost my marbles in the process of writing the A to Z Challenge along with my other activities and duties. The Challenge evidently taxed my brain!
Thank you for stopping by my blog to read and comment. I was not able to be as social this year in following others’ blogs because of all my various duties, so please forgive me. However, this year I did focus on one subject… my caregiving. It honestly has been a tough ride for me, so I DO appreciate your support!! I SURVIVED!!! Gwynn
“When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure.” Author Unknown
“A happy life is spent in yearning, earning, and learning.” Lillian Gish
“Fear of the future and longing for the past are major factors which impede appropriate action.” Brenda Shoshanna
I am yearning for our move to be complete and for us to get settled in our new home so I can enjoy my LONG winter’s nap! I yearn for my life to ease up as I feel like the world is riding on my shoulders. I yearn for a break!
Then my husband yearns for his health to return. He has learned a very hard lesson about living life in a healthy manner. Due to his unhealthy life style he now pays for his mistakes via low blood pressure. He yells in the middle of the night after he passes out as he voices his frustration and scare with his predicament. He does a great job of startling me too. I also yearn for his health to return. I hope it is possible.
My husband has hurt himself in numerous ways, both physically and emotionally so he yearns to have a normal and happy life again. BUT he must change his ways. Change is hard to come by.
What is fascinating to me is that today when my husband visited his doctor for his last check up from the hiatal hernia surgery, the doctor said that usually more women than men experience hiatal hernias… it is part of growing old… so yearn for healthy ways so you don’t grow ill like my husband.
When you are frustrated do you sometimes yell to express disappointment or anger or depression? Sometimes after one of my husband’s events, he yells and yells like a little kid, as he wants his former life back. His expression indicates his lack of patience in his attempt to grow and change. Sadly, progressing to a healthy life style takes time as we need to define what needs to change, create a plan, and then actively work at morphing. Sometimes it seems impossible to bring about the necessary transformation.
What our heart desires is sometimes difficult to come by. Yearning by itself will not solve the problem. Of course screaming doesn’t solve the problem either… but sometimes it sure feels good!
“ He makes people please with him by making them first pleased with themselves.” Lord Chesterfield
“Don’t consider how many you can please, but whom.” Publius Syrus
Xenial defined: Of or concern of hospitality toward guests. Hospitable, especially to visiting strangers or foreigners. Of the relation between a host and guest; friendly.
Hospitable must be my middle name as I love having friends and acquaintances over to entertain them. I enjoy preparing and presenting meals and drinks, making people comfortable, in the comfort of my normally organized home.
But soon, I have a challenge for me, as our neighbors will be moving us to our new home, a small apartment. After their hard work and help, I want to reward them with something special to show my appreciation for their muchly needed help.
Boxes will be everywhere. I’ll be clueless as to where to find everything in the new apartment. The men will be exhausted, hungry, and thirsty.
If you were in my shoes… tired too, what would you do to THANK these wonderful people for the back breaking work that they volunteered to do for you?
Do you go order pizzas or Subway sandwiches or hamburgers and drinks? What would you do to show appreciation and hospitality for the fantastic things these people did?
I NEVER in a million years can thank my friends and neighbors enough for the fantastic service they have done for me and my husband.
“Sitting here in limbo waiting for the tide to flow.” Jimmy Cliff
“A man watches his pear tree day after day, impatient for the ripening of the fruit. Let him attempt to force the ripening of the fruit, and he may spoil both fruit and tree. But let him patiently wait, and the ripe pear at length falls into his lap!” Abraham Lincoln
This week is the beginning of watching and waiting. I take my husband to the doctor to see what improvement he has made. We will have to jump out of bed at the crack of dawn to wait for an early ferry which will get us to Seattle early enough that we will then have to wait for the doctor. In the meantime, in these four horrific months I have been watching and waiting to see if my husband’s health improves. This is a LONG wait!
We are also in the process of moving so we are attempting to connect with Comcast to arrange to have our computers set up. This means we have to wait in line for our appointment date to arrive, and then sit in the apartment for a couple of hours watching and waiting for the utility man to show up.
Since we are downsizing from a house to an apartment, we will need to have most of our furniture and various mementos auctioned off, so we are waiting and watching for the day when the auctioneer shows up. Wednesday, the big day is finally here!!
Then BLESS OUR NEIGHBORS as they volunteered to move us. They are watching and waiting for us to get rid of all our excess stuff so they can pick a date that works with their work schedules. So we wait with bated breath on a move date. In the meantime, I still have to work at moving the things I can move to make our process more efficient. I would rather sit and whittle my thumbs as my energy is WHACKED.