Where is my Inspiration?

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“Don’t loaf and invite inspiration.  Light out after it with a club.”  Jack London

“So-called ‘inspiration’ is no more than an extreme example of a process which constantly goes on in the minds of all of us.”  Anthony Storr

“Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, IF one only remembers to turn on the light!”  Albus Dumbledore

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I’m learning insecurity and my lack of inspiration walk hand-in-hand.  However, I’m beginning to realize that due to my high stress-level, because of my husband’s serious illness I have an excuse (this time).  When I am totally stressed-out my mind shuts down as all I see is blackness at the bottom of my deep, dark, hole.

Friends are helping me by showing me that I do have inspiration, provided I take a deep breath and breathe some oxygen into my mind and heart.  When we strangle our thoughts it is difficult to see opportunities.

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Walking the Poulsbo waterfront clears my mind of the Grumbles.  Then as I talk to the seagulls that glide overhead ideas start popping into my mind.  The breeze and the sunshine whisk me off the ground as I float around town.  Today the wind was so strong I nearly did airborne flips with the seagulls.  There was a smile on my face!

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Gradually, I write down my ideas for the A to Z Blogger’s Challenge for this year.  I might even write based on one subject for a change.  The Challenge definitely will be a bonus for me as I learn to think out of the hat and continue to grow.

Hey, that might mean there is hope for me.  Is it possible that I MIGHT learn to become less insecure?  My fingers are crossed!

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About Gwynn Rogers

After 20 years of sales and marketing experience in the fields of real estate, high tech, and corporate travel, Gwynn has moved on to the career of “Grandma.” When not teaching her granddaughters an extensive vocabulary of “alley-oop-boop, ups-a-daisy, cowabunga or bummer”, Gwynn can be found hunting for mentors for the Kitsap Youth Mentoring Consortium, or chasing her fantasies on her treadmill. Gwynn currently freelances for magazines.
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24 Responses to Where is my Inspiration?

  1. Tina Peterson says:

    Fabulous! You’re on your way, Gwynn!

  2. Gwynn Rogers says:

    Oh THANKS Tina!! Just wait until April as I think I will be writing about Caregiving! I definitely WILL have a lot to write about then!

  3. pat garcia says:

    You are coming out and it is beautiful to see. I like the fact that you are gathering momentum as you take your walks around Poulsbo. You’re gaining strength.
    Proud of you, Lady.
    Shalom,
    Patricia

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Oh Pat, I will need to be Hercules as there is a gigantic wave of garbage headed my way. I definitely will have more to write about… but not happy stuff unless a miracle happens and I win the lottery. Thanks for your lovely comment and your support. You are a lovely lady!

  4. Nothing like a good walk! I take one every day, even in the city, to clear my head and calm me down.

    As for insecurity, if you figure out how to get rid of it, let me know. I’d love to buy that book! 🙂

    It’s been a long haul with your husband’s illness. I hope you find some ease soon.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      John is slowly becoming healthier, but he has a LONG way to go… IF he will get better. My walks are my life-saver. Yesterday we had a healthy windstorm. The closed the bridge for safety’s sake, but I almost got my wish of becoming a seagull to fly over the waterfront. The winds knocked down more power lines too. When you come home bring your umbrella, you may get to experience being Mary Poppins! Thanks for your support. I can hardly wait to hear about New York! Have a safe trip home.

  5. Being out in nature, walking, noticing the beauty of your surrounds, is the best inspiration. Not to mention, being a grandma and spending time with your grandkids. Great, also, that you’re doing the A to Z Challenge. It’s a blast.
    Mary at Play off the Page

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Mary, I apologize for responding so late to your comment. I had thought that my blog would notify me of all comments… evidently not! Additionally, I was without a computer for a week so I missed the Theme Reveal date. My post will be about the problems I had in signing up for the Reveal. I do plan on writing about Caregiving for the A to Z Challenge. I will post in a few minutes.

      Sadly, my granddaughters now live across the state from me, so I don’t get to play Grandma Monster with them as often… to eat them up with LOVE!

      I look forward to reading your blog. Again, please forgive my tardy reply as I DO appreciate comments. The funny part is that I was wondering why no one commented on my post. Now, I know why… they were hiding in plain sight!

  6. You’re on your way! I have also found that walking sparks those ideas. Especially walking outdoors. There have apparently been studies about how exercise gets the oxygen flowing, which helps us think more clearly. I think insecurity does lessen the longer we write.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Stephanie, I am So SORRY that my reply is so tardy! I thought my blog would notify me of all comments. I guess not!

      Yes, I have always love walking outdoors, especially along beaches where I can enjoy the water, sea life, and the birds. It clears my mind and then I can be happy again before I head home to do more caregiving for my husband. My theme for the Challenge will be Caregiving! No surprise, Huh! I look forward to reading your blog! Thanks for your comment!

  7. Lots of inspiration in your post. No matter who is cheering for us, it ultimately comes from within.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Susan, Thank you SO much for your comment. As I told the others, I ‘thought’ my blog would notify me of ALL comments. Evidently that is not true.

      Yes, you won’t be surprised to learn that my Theme for the A to Z Challenge will be Caregiving. Sadly, I was without a computer for a week so I missed the deadline to sign up. My next post will explain the other challenges I ran into in attempting to sign up for the Theme Reveal too. Thank you for your comments. I look forward to reading your blog.

  8. Jacqui says:

    I don’t think you could do the AtoZ without being totally inspired. I bet a month of that and your muse will be in high gear.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Hi Jacqui, as I told the others, I SO apologize for my tardy reply. I did think my blog would notify me when people commented on my blog. So much for that thinking!

      Since I was without a computer for a week I missed the Theme Reveal date for the A to Z Blogger’s Challenge. I’m betting you won’t be surprised that my Theme will be Caregiving. I SO appreciate your stopping by to comment. I look forward to more conversations with you.

  9. Sorry to hear about the stress of illness, but good job at keeping positive! I know my creativity drops when I start getting frazzled. Sometimes, we just need to step out and away for a while to clear our heads and calm down.

    Hope your man gets well soon!

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Loni, I SO apologize in being so tardy in replying. As I told some of the others, I THOUGHT my blog would notify me of comments. DARN!

      Yes, for me, getting out to walk is critical as otherwise I feel buried. Sometimes my thoughts kick-in with some inspiration and sometimes not. However, I did decide that my theme for the A to Z Challenge will be Caregiving. I definitely appreciate your comments and again, I’m sorry for being so late in replying.

  10. Ashen says:

    Your theme, inspiration – made me think of a Rumi poem you might enjoy:

    The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
    Don’t go back to sleep.
    You must ask for what you really want.
    Don’t go back to sleep.
    People are going back and forth across the doorsill
    where the two worlds touch.
    The door is round and open.
    Don’t go back to sleep. … Mewlana Jalaluddin Rumi

  11. Gulara says:

    I believe inspiration doesn’t flourish in a high-stress environment, Gwynn. We need to feel rested and nurtured for our inspiration to spring forward. But I love how your wisdom shines through. There’s such beauty in you sharing what is. That in itself, your willingness to show up and your courage are inspiring. Your beautiful post is a bonus.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      I SO DEFINITELY appreciate your support, Gulara! I am trying very hard to deal appropriately with my stress so that we can reach some positive answers. My husband needs to get well, the bills have put us in financial difficulty, and we need to move to a smaller home that is one level instead of two. Life definitely IS a challenge. I think my A to Z Blogger’s Challenge in April will be about Caregiving and my emotions. Being a full-time caregiver IS a challenge all in itself.

      Again, Thank You for your wisdom and support. Have a Happy Birthday! You deserve ALL that is wonderful! 😉 Hugs!

  12. I’m sorry to hear about your husband. I started my first book to take my mind off the stress in my life (my dad and brother both had cancer). I’d lie in bed at night and worry and feel sad, so I started planning plots to occupy my mind.

    I totally think insecurity is an inspiration killer!

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Elizabeth, I apologize in being so tardy in replying to you. I ‘thought’ my blog would notify me of new posts. I am SO sorry to hear about your dad and your brother. I remember how hard it was on me when my brother passed away. Actually, some of the stress is what initially started me writing as like a volcano I needed to spew emotion.

      I look forward to communicating with you again. Thanks for your time!

  13. With all its craziness, the AZ Challenge is a great way to put ideas down, I completely agree. Sounds like you chose the perfect theme, as writing about what goes on in our lives is such great therapy. Look forward to April!

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Hi Silvia,

      April will be a crazy month for me. I’m praying that I can complete the challenge as we are going to have to move too. YIKES!! Thanks for your support!

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