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April 2016 Insecure Writers’ Support Group

 

“The first and last steps are usually the hardest. “  Saying 

“A bad beginning may make a good ending.”  Saying (German) 

“There will come a time when you believe everything is finished.  That will be the beginning”  Louis L’Amour

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First, I want to thank my friend, Patricia Garcia, for inviting me to join the Insecure Writers’ Support Group.  2016 is the beginning of a new year for me as I stepped forward and out of my safe box to join the IWSG.  In coming up with this brilliant idea, I planned to make the effort to write more about my brother’s short and wild life.  But what I discovered is that I am part of his life even though we were really only part of one another’s lives as children.  Once we graduated from high school we went in totally opposite directions.  My goal is to write about our lives with the hope of possibly publishing either a short story or something longer.  You noticed that I’m still afraid to say “book!”  This is where my insecurity steps in, but one thing I am learning… you don’t accomplish any goals UNTIL you begin?

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BUT… WHERE do I begin?  Do I start with our childhood?  OR do I start when our lives split when I went off to college and no longer was the firewall between my brother, Jim, and my dad. Actually, I could start when my brother climbed out his bedroom window with the intent to commit suicide.  Or how about when I drove through a snowstorm to connect with my brother in Colorado Springs only to learn upon driving for hours and hours, that we  (me, my brother and his partner) were to head to Boulder for a Gay Barn party.  This is when the excitement really begins.

You may notice how great I am at procrastinating!  Instead of working on writing about my brother and me, the 2016 April A to Z Blogger’s Challenge sidetracked me.  Hey, I’m GREAT at coming up with excuses!  You might say April DEFINITELY IS A CHALLENGE!

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Then another lightbulb went on.  I’m caregiving for my husband because he passes out when he stands up, due to his excessively low blood pressure.  I feel angry, burnt-out depressed, exhausted, frustrated and so forth… this might make a good book for caregivers.  Therefore April’s A to Z Blogger’s Challenge will be about caregiving.

Now that the lightbulbs are popping, I need to work at following through.  Oh yes, I forgot to add that NOW we have to drastically downsize to a one level and small apartment.  I do have a few projects on my plate.

Do all writers get hit with so much at one time?  Or am I simply an expert at avoiding my writing?  See, I told you I was insecure!

 

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About Gwynn Rogers

After 20 years of sales and marketing experience in the fields of real estate, high tech, and corporate travel, Gwynn has moved on to the career of “Grandma.” When not teaching her granddaughters an extensive vocabulary of “alley-oop-boop, ups-a-daisy, cowabunga or bummer”, Gwynn can be found hunting for mentors for the Kitsap Youth Mentoring Consortium, or chasing her fantasies on her treadmill. Gwynn currently freelances for magazines.
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9 Responses to Insecure Writers’ Support Group

  1. pat garcia says:

    My Dear Friend,
    First, thank you for listening to me. I see so much quality in what you write and I just knew the IWSG would be a ideal place for you to jump off and start doing your thing. I am so proud of you, so proud you’re going to write that book that we always talked about.
    Take your time. The A to Z Blog Challenge is not a procrastination technique. The A to Z Challenge is preparing you to write even more.

    And yes, all of us writers have points in our lives when major obstacles hit us. They usually come when we have decided to do something that will influence people, like writing a book.

    Shalom,
    Patricia

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      I’m laughing Patricia… I HAVE to make it through April’s Challenge, my moving Challenge, and life first before I can work on my brother. I always thought the book needed to be a cohesive story… but maybe a collection of stories would work?

      You are a marvelous support system. I do SO appreciate you, my friend. I also wish you lived a WHOLE LOT CLOSER!! 😉 Hugs!

  2. Dear Gwynn, life is a collection of ups and downs, some downs more pronounced than the ups. You’re going through a long and emotionally draining down, but I am so proud of you for hanging in there and for talking about it (writing, rather). Very important to get it out, I think. Hang tight because the ups will come. And keep writing. Your writing is beautiful.
    Hugs,
    Silvia.

  3. Gwynn Rogers says:

    Silvia, Thanks for your compliment about my writing. Coming from you that means a lot.

    Yes, I needed to write about how I was feeling. John is doing better, but I still have to watch out for him. I keep working at taking care of myself too. However, this month, for some funny reason, I’m spending a lot of time at the computer, especially last night when I realized that I needed to do two posts. So much for my being helpful! 😉

    Thanks for being a friend! Hugs!

  4. Gulara says:

    I love these posts, Gwynn, by showing your own vulnerability, you are empowering many people to speak up.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Gulara, I’m willing to bet that most people have no clue as to how emotionally draining caretaking is. Plus, it can be backbreaking work or it can be just normal day to day projects, if you don’t sleep well, working at anything is exhausting. Today is one of those days for me! Thank God for friends!! Our neighbors have ganged together and said they will move us. I am SO BLESSED!! Hugs to you!

  5. C.G.Coppola says:

    Welcome to IWSG 🙂

    I think you shouldn’t worry about where (time-wise) to start writing about your brother, and just start doing it. Pick an occasion and go. Get it out. More and more will start to flow and you’ll eventually piece it together beautifully.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      I just read your IWSG post and I’m shaking my head. You are a COOL kid (slightly younger than my kids) and you ALREADY have three books out… WOW!! Pat yourself on the back. You have the drive, the imagination, and the ability… KEEP moving forward!! You are headed in the right direction! Heck, I’m WAY older than you and where I have published a few short stories… that’s it! No books on my list! But, I do need to make the effort to step forward…YOU DID! Congratulations!! Thanks for stopping by here to comment. I just tried to comment on your blog, but I didn’t get it right… I’ll have to try again. You too!!

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