April 2016 Insecure Writers’ Support Group
“The first and last steps are usually the hardest. “ Saying
“A bad beginning may make a good ending.” Saying (German)
“There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning” Louis L’Amour
First, I want to thank my friend, Patricia Garcia, for inviting me to join the Insecure Writers’ Support Group. 2016 is the beginning of a new year for me as I stepped forward and out of my safe box to join the IWSG. In coming up with this brilliant idea, I planned to make the effort to write more about my brother’s short and wild life. But what I discovered is that I am part of his life even though we were really only part of one another’s lives as children. Once we graduated from high school we went in totally opposite directions. My goal is to write about our lives with the hope of possibly publishing either a short story or something longer. You noticed that I’m still afraid to say “book!” This is where my insecurity steps in, but one thing I am learning… you don’t accomplish any goals UNTIL you begin?
BUT… WHERE do I begin? Do I start with our childhood? OR do I start when our lives split when I went off to college and no longer was the firewall between my brother, Jim, and my dad. Actually, I could start when my brother climbed out his bedroom window with the intent to commit suicide. Or how about when I drove through a snowstorm to connect with my brother in Colorado Springs only to learn upon driving for hours and hours, that we (me, my brother and his partner) were to head to Boulder for a Gay Barn party. This is when the excitement really begins.
You may notice how great I am at procrastinating! Instead of working on writing about my brother and me, the 2016 April A to Z Blogger’s Challenge sidetracked me. Hey, I’m GREAT at coming up with excuses! You might say April DEFINITELY IS A CHALLENGE!
Then another lightbulb went on. I’m caregiving for my husband because he passes out when he stands up, due to his excessively low blood pressure. I feel angry, burnt-out depressed, exhausted, frustrated and so forth… this might make a good book for caregivers. Therefore April’s A to Z Blogger’s Challenge will be about caregiving.
Now that the lightbulbs are popping, I need to work at following through. Oh yes, I forgot to add that NOW we have to drastically downsize to a one level and small apartment. I do have a few projects on my plate.
Do all writers get hit with so much at one time? Or am I simply an expert at avoiding my writing? See, I told you I was insecure!