Many Thanks to my friend, Patricia Garcia, who invited me to join the Insecure Writer’s Support Group, started by Alex Cavanaugh. Since my life has been torn in so many directions, I realize that I now need to learn to effectively participate in the IWSG group in order to receive the benefits.
I am still involved in caregiving for my sick husband, but if we can discover what specifically is wrong with him, there might be light at the end of my tunnel. The good news is that we are relocated and settled. The “Long Winter’s Nap” that I yearned for is now part of my daily routine. Additionally, I have picked up Jonathan Evison’s book, “The Revised Fundamentals of Caregiving… A novel.” My hope is that it will help me structure and sort through my thoughts and ideas about writing about my experiences of caregiving. Yes, maybe I can actually throw some humor into this horrific situation.
But, this brings me to another issue… my fear, lack of confidence, and my negativity about my capabilities. Yes, I have published a couple of short stories. Despite my working to submit more stories nothing has been accepted. Heck, I don’t even receive rejection letters… nothing! When this happens my mind stays stuck like a record in the wrong groove as I replay my mother’s words about my lack of capabilities. It is amazing the damage family history can play on our psyche!
Consequently, I need to keep learning, growing, and erasing history. I need to actively work at supporting others so that I will receive support in return. I need to step out of my hiding place too. Is there anyone out there that feels as I do?