“I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I’m awake, you know?” Ernest Hemingway
“I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.” Stephen Chbosky
“Laugh and the world laughs with you, snore and you sleep alone.” Anthony Burgess
Evidently my Christmas and New Year’s resolution was to give up sleep! Normally, I do a terrible job with my resolutions, but for some weird reason this year I’m doing fantastic. Evidently, becoming a 24 hour a day, seven day a week caregiver qualified me for the lack of sleep award.
I have gone from jumping out of bed several times at night when my husband crashes from passing out to a periodic crash. Heck, I even played the ambulance in taking him to the hospital. I’m still getting up early to make sure my husband gets his food with his medicine.
The biggest change is that now we are in the midst of downsizing and moving. My husband can’t help or lift so I am doing a great deal of the packing and moving of light things myself. Now, I have noticed that some muscles seem to be returning. My work-out without the gym!
Sometimes I feel so tired at night that I nearly do a face-plant in bed.
I feel like the Energizer Bunny, but without her battery! I have been keeping up this pace for four months. We should be moved by the end of next month and hopefully settled in before too long. I’m praying my husband’s health will continue to improve slowly but surely so that I can sleep easier at night. But when all is done, I will celebrate by planting myself in my easy chair for a LONG, deserved nap!! Ahhhh, SLEEP!!