“Because what’s worse than knowing you wanted something besides knowing you can never have it.” James Patterson
“How we need another soul to cling to, another body to keep us warm. To rest and trust; to give your soul in confidence: I need this, I need someone to pour myself into.” Sylvia Plath
“The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd —The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the world’s existence. All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.” Fernando Pessoa
“A lot of people get so hung up on what they can’t have they don’t think for a second about whether they really want it.” Lionel Shriver
What do you “yearn” for… the A – Z Challenge to be over (we only have one more day), money, power, beauty, youth, things, love, or adventure? I simply yearn to be able to do the things I “kind of” once was able to do… like my modern dance moves or my water ballet that I did for years. Discovering that my aging body has a mind of its’ own totally bums me out as I enjoy being goofy, periodically. I also enjoy the freedom of movement that the water provided my body.
I once yearned to be a mermaid as I rode the swell of the waves as they raced toward shore. Then in synchronized swimming, I so loved being under the water and moving to the music. Fluidity with nature has always been important to me… the grace of sting rays, the playfulness of dolphins, so I have a yen to be part of their world. Ok, I wouldn’t mind finding that time warp I keep hearing about so I could get my teenage body back too.
Now, as I walk the Poulsbo waterfront, nature reaches out to embrace me. The ravens chase the seagulls off their turf– the lamp post. Or the seagulls float high in the air above me, as if a puppet on a string. But when the bald eagle visits, the seagulls angrily squawk and let him know in no uncertain terms that the eagle is not welcome. Meanwhile the otter or the seal swim along the shore looking for baby fish to munch on for their meal ignoring the feathery turmoil above them. Plus, I am surrounded by parents and children playing, seniors walking their pets, and I am happy.
I walk along feeling engulfed by nature as the wind lifts my hair blowing it in a hundred directions. The sun warms my soul. I no longer have to yearn as I now recognize that I am part of this world… one with nature.