Y – Yearn



“Because what’s worse than knowing you wanted something besides knowing you can never have it.”   James Patterson 

“How we need another soul to cling to, another body to keep us warm.  To rest and trust; to give your soul in confidence:  I need this, I need someone to pour myself into.”   Sylvia Plath

“The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd —The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the world’s existence.  All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.”   Fernando Pessoa 

“A lot of people get so hung up on what they can’t have they don’t think for a second about whether they really want it.”   Lionel Shriver


What do you “yearn” for… the A – Z Challenge to be over (we only have one more day), money, power, beauty, youth, things, love, or adventure?  I simply yearn to be able to do the things I “kind of” once was able to do… like my modern dance moves or my water ballet that I did for years.  Discovering that my aging body has a mind of its’ own totally bums me out as I enjoy being goofy, periodically.  I also enjoy the freedom of movement that the water provided my body.                              Yearn to swim

I once yearned to be a mermaid as I rode the swell of the waves as they raced toward shore. Then in synchronized swimming, I so loved being under the water and moving to the music.  Fluidity with nature has always been important to me… the grace of sting rays, the playfulness of dolphins, so I have a yen to be part of their world.  Ok, I wouldn’t mind finding that time warp I keep hearing about so I could get my teenage body back too.

yearn to swim or synch

Now, as I walk the Poulsbo waterfront, nature reaches out to embrace me.  The ravens chase the seagulls off their turf– the lamp post.  Or the seagulls float high in the air above me, as if a puppet on a string.  But when the bald eagle visits, the seagulls angrily squawk and let him know in no uncertain terms that the eagle is not welcome.  Meanwhile the otter or the seal swim along the shore looking for baby fish to munch on for their meal ignoring the feathery turmoil above them.  Plus, I am surrounded by parents and children playing, seniors walking their pets, and I am happy.

yearning too

I walk along feeling engulfed by nature as the wind lifts my hair blowing it in a hundred directions. The sun warms my soul.  I no longer have to yearn as I now recognize that I am part of this world… one with nature.

yearning 2







About Gwynn Rogers

After 20 years of sales and marketing experience in the fields of real estate, high tech, and corporate travel, Gwynn has moved on to the career of “Grandma.” When not teaching her granddaughters an extensive vocabulary of “alley-oop-boop, ups-a-daisy, cowabunga or bummer”, Gwynn can be found hunting for mentors for the Kitsap Youth Mentoring Consortium, or chasing her fantasies on her treadmill. Gwynn currently freelances for magazines.
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14 Responses to Y – Yearn

  1. pat garcia says:

    Oh, how I love your quotations from Goethe and Ariana Speyer. Beautiful. They speak to my heart.
    Wonderful post my dear. I enjoyed reading it.
    And by the way, in my opinion, you’re a mermaid. The water seems to be your element where you find peace and that’s beautiful.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Oh Pat, I have ALWAYS love quotations. I have books and books of them. Some quotations are even on the magnets on my refrigerator with picture of my kids and grandkids. Plus, as you noticed, I AM a water person. I have always loved the water… the lake, the ocean, a pool. But water and nature does bring me serenity. It is in my heart. The guys down at the marina even notice how much I enjoy the water and the wildlife. My house even has a view of the bay. To meditate I feel the warmth of the sand and listen for the crash of the ocean’s surf. I HAVE to be around water!!

      I am running out of steam with the Challenge. I’m glad we only have one more letter… PHEW! Thanks for all of your wonderful support. You are so dear! Hugs, Gwynn

  2. Susan Scott says:

    Ah Gwynn this is poetry thank you so much, it’s so expressive of much and many, many of us. The quotes are all lovely and meaningful. More than that though, I can see you and your heart walking, striding along Paulsbo waterfront and taking in your surroundings and yielding to all … YOU make the world a better place.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Oh Thank you Susan… after all I am “the Queen of Poulsbo” I TRY hard to make the world a better place! 😉 But mostly, I do so LOVE the water and nature. Being outside on my walk does a world of good for me and my attitude. Plus, I love the crazy people I meet. Even more it surprises me the number of people who notice me on my walks. I figured I would just be another person… but I’m not.

      I’m laughing too… believe it or not we SURVIVED the Challenge. I remember thinking I should back out. I didn’t think I would make it, let alone figure out what to write about… SHOCK!!

      Thank you for all your KIND support and being such a fabulous friend. Hugs, Gwynn (Now, I’m off to the pool!)

  3. These quotes are incredible! And what a great word to choose. This is such a lovely, heartfelt post. *breathes in deeply* Thank you!

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      I’m a quote junkie… I LOVE them. I would be covered in them except I don’t like tattoos. 😉 It is funny. After I write these I think of soooo much more I should have/could have included. Thanks for being a friend!

  4. Gwyn, your post has lifted my spirits to the rafters. I love how you’ve taken us from the sadder aspects of yearning, through the amusing and self-deprecatory aspects, right through to acceptance and finding joy in the moment. Beautiful. Each and every quotation speaks directly to me–thank you so much for adding such a bright spark to my day.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Kern, your comments are so kind… thank you. It is interesting to me how we all have such varied forms of writing but each piece adds to my day. I have decided that you must be an information junkie as you include so many wonderful ideas and concepts on your blog. I’m pleased that I could add some joy to your heart. Thank you so much for following along with me. I do so appreciate you.

  5. Our Y posts are similar, Gwynn — great minds think alike. 🙂 What a very wonderful post, with so much lyricism in it, and such beautiful quotes. All very positive and beautiful, as there is so much beauty in life we walk right past too many times. I smiled at the images you showed here, stories of all the yearning in our hearts. That’s why art is such an escape, a way in which to satisfy our yearning. Thank you.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Yes, it truly is interesting what we all “yearn” for in life. I have heard so many sad tales lately that I noticed people don’t see and appreciate what we do have. I did chuckle that we both wrote about the same word… WAY TO GO!! Now, if only I can get my mind to work like yours! I look forward to watching you grow! Thank you for being such a wonderful friend.

  6. Ditto what Susan and Kern say, Gwynn.

    Your last two paragraphs are gold — beautiful, lyrical writing. You yearn to be a writer — I believe you have made it. Lovely, just lovely.

    Hugs to you.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      This has certainly been an interesting month. I nearly withdrew from the Challenge as I did not have the foggiest idea in the world of WHAT to write about. But slowly some ideas popped up!

      Thank you for your kind words. After tomorrow’s post, you may bite your tongue! 😉 Mostly, I’m POOPED! I suspect the challenge was a good experience for you too. Congratulations, we are nearly done.

  7. Sometimes yearning is good. If you want some sort of material thing it always means more if you long for it for awhile before getting it than if you just decide you want something and there it is. Of course wishing for your teenage body to come back will probably go unfulfilled, but since the alternative to getting old is dying young it’s the lesser evil.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      In my case, I have a pretty messed up back with some pain issues. There are times that dying sounds like a good alternative… thus my reason for wanting my younger body back. But more importantly, being happy with what I have is crucial. When I die my soul will be free to dance again!

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