Y = Yearning and Yelling


“When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure.”  Author Unknown

“A happy life is spent in yearning, earning, and learning.”   Lillian Gish 

“Fear of the future and longing for the past are major factors which impede appropriate action.”  Brenda Shoshanna


I am yearning for our move to be complete and for us to get settled in our new home so I can enjoy my LONG winter’s nap!  I yearn for my life to ease up as I feel like the world is riding on my shoulders.  I yearn for a break!

Then my husband yearns for his health to return.  He has learned a very hard lesson about living life in a healthy manner.  Due to his unhealthy life style he now pays for his mistakes via low blood pressure.  He yells in the middle of the night after he passes out as he voices his frustration and scare with his predicament.  He does a great job of startling me too.  I also yearn for his health to return.  I hope it is possible.


My husband has hurt himself in numerous ways, both physically and emotionally so he yearns to have a normal and happy life again.  BUT he must change his ways.  Change is hard to come by.


What is fascinating to me is that today when my husband visited his doctor for his last check up from the hiatal hernia surgery, the doctor said that usually more women than men experience hiatal hernias… it is part of growing old… so yearn for healthy ways so you don’t grow ill like my husband.


When you are frustrated do you sometimes yell to express disappointment or anger or depression?  Sometimes after one of my husband’s events, he yells and yells like a little kid, as he wants his former life back.  His expression indicates his lack of patience in his attempt to grow and change.  Sadly, progressing to a healthy life style takes time as we need to define what needs to change, create a plan, and then actively work at morphing.  Sometimes it seems impossible to bring about the necessary transformation.


What our heart desires is sometimes difficult to come by.  Yearning by itself will not solve the problem.  Of course screaming doesn’t solve the problem either… but sometimes it sure feels good!










About Gwynn Rogers

After 20 years of sales and marketing experience in the fields of real estate, high tech, and corporate travel, Gwynn has moved on to the career of “Grandma.” When not teaching her granddaughters an extensive vocabulary of “alley-oop-boop, ups-a-daisy, cowabunga or bummer”, Gwynn can be found hunting for mentors for the Kitsap Youth Mentoring Consortium, or chasing her fantasies on her treadmill. Gwynn currently freelances for magazines.
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12 Responses to Y = Yearning and Yelling

  1. Susan Scott says:

    ah yearning! May your yearnings come true dear Gwynn. Put them into practice as you and your husband are doing. His yelling must be a way of expressing his frustration … perhaps it is healthy instead of keeping it in?

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      Yes, my husband’s yelling is a way of expressing his frustration. However, yesterday he scared the nurse in the process, and he didn’t even realize it. I had to assure her that he wasn’t yelling at her.

      I do so feel for my husband’s frustration at feeling weak. I would not like being in his shoes!! At least he is expressing himself and not bottling it up! I am yearning that he will get well. We’ll see.

  2. pat garcia says:

    Again one of your quotes touched my heart because of the reality and truth in it.

    “When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure.” Author Unknown

    You and your husband are going through lots of changes and you’re growing. You’re turning into beautiful diamonds.

    Visiting from the A to Z Blog Challenge.

    Patricia @ EverythingMustChange

  3. Val Rainey says:

    Hey Gwynn
    I know just how he feels. I’ve fought weight issues for a very long time a finally realized this morning….yep today….that fighting doesn’t work. Both he and I need to learn that fighting our body just doesn’t work. We need to ask it what it wants and then slowly start giving it to it. If we move too fast our system doesn’t trust us so both John and I need to be gentle with ourselves.

    Love always,

  4. True words, Gwynn, yearning by itself will not make things happen. Need goals and need to take steps in the direction of our yearning, however small.
    You’ve done wonderfully, and I sure hope everything settles for you soon — the move becomes complete, and you get to put your feet up for some time, and enjoy the peace.
    And … we’re getting a break from blogging soon. That doesn’t hurt. 🙂

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      The move happens May 14th, so there IS light at the end of the tunnel. Then we have to get settled… AND I won’t have to post to my blog daily …YEAAAA!!! Plus, we have to move our cables and set up our computers, so I may be out of touch for a few days. But I SURVIVED!!! 😉

      I hope your son is better!!

  5. Margie says:

    I hope the move helps and things get better for you and your husband. It’s been great to follow you on the A to Z challenge.

  6. You’re almost there, Gwynn. You have done well. Your husband has to express his frustration somehow, that inner pain and angst. You are both undergoing much change. This is where he is now. It’s very, very difficult. Nice message there from Val, too. Thoughtful.

    • Gwynn Rogers says:

      WOOOOHOOOOO, I just posted my Z!!! I’m DONE and Done-in!!! This has been an incredible month and a great deal of change has transpired… GOOD!

      Now, if only we can change my husband’s blood pressure so he can get his balance back!

      Congratulations… we both survived the Challenge! We are finished… KAPUT!

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